There are things that I believe in in this world: that you can only plan your life, but there is always a POWER that will destine whether your plan will come true or not. And that power is GOD. I am not such a religious person, but I believe in hope and faith that's written in each person. In life, you can plan things, try to achieve it, but in the end, it's up to the POWER if you deserve to succeed or not.
My principle is just follow where the wind blows, just like this song.

Goin' Where The Wind Blows (Mr.Big)
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Someone said life is for the taking
Here I am with my hand out waiting for a ride
I've been living on my great expectations
What good is it when I'm stranded here
And the world just passess by
Where are the signs to help me get out of this place

If I should stumble on my moment in time,
How will I know
If the story's written on my face, does it show
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool going where the wind blows

Here I sit halfway to somewhere
Thinking about what's in front of me and
what I left behind
On my own, supposed to be so easy
Is this what I've been after
Or have I lost my mind
Maybe this is my chance coming to take me away

If I should stumble on my moment in time,
How will I know
If the story's written on my face, does it show
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool going where the wind blows
Here I am walking naked through the world
Taking up space, society's child
Make room for me, make room for me,
make room for me
Am I strong enough to walk on water
Smart enough to come in out of the rain
Or am I a fool
Going where the wind blows

These few days were tough, especially yesterday. I was rejected for voluntary work as reader for audio media for blind people (they said my dutch is NOT WITHOUT ACCENT), rejected for 2 jobs for a stupid reason: distance. They said the distance to the future work is too far. Yeah right.
Anyway, people have dreams in their life, so do I. Van Halen has the best description for dreams that haven't come true yet.

Dreams
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World turns black and white
Pictures in an empty room
Your love starts fallin' down
Better change your tune
Yeah, you reach for the golden ring
Reach for the sky
Baby, just spread your wings

We'll get higher and higher
Straight up we'll climb
We'll get higher and higher
Leave it all behind

Run, run, run away
Like a train runnin' off the track
Got the truth bein' left behind
Falls between the cracks
Standin' on broken dreams
Never losin' sight, ah
Well just spread your wings

So baby dry your eyes
Save all the tears you've cried
Oh, that's what dreams are made of
'Cause we belong in a world that must be strong
Oh, that's what dreams are made of

Yeah, we'll get higher and higher
Straight up we'll climb
Higher and higher
Leave it all behind
Oh, we'll get higher and higher
Who knows what we'll find?

So baby dry your eyes
Save all the tears you've cried
Oh, that's what dreams are made of
Oh baby, we belong in a world that must be strong
Oh, that's what dreams are made of

And in the end on dreams we will depend
'Cause that's what love is made of

She used to be one of my female favorite singers (although she doesn't rock!), but since she changes the way she looks and sings, I find her disappointing singer.
But anyway, I just had a rought time yesterday and her song kept on going on my head. Here it is.

Hero (Mariah Carey)
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There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way

Other band that really colors my life is Mr.Big. Supported by one of the best bassist in the world, Billy Sheehan, and the best guitarist, Paul Gilbert (later replaced by Richie Kotzen), this band succeed around the world with their songs as Wild World, To be with you, Goin' where the wind blows and many more. Unfortunately they splitted in 2002, but Billy Sheehan is still active in music industry, just recently this month he gave bass clinic in the Netherlands. Too bad I was late for that. Paul Gilbert lives likely in Japan, while the vocalist Eric Martin is still active as well, success with his solo : I love the way you love me, and still active producing solo albums.

Anyway, this is one of the splitted bands that I wished could go back together and creating great music again.
This is one of their songs.

Nothing But Love
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Guess what baby
The things we said
Came true today cause we listened to your hearts
No one but you
Will ever do
Our search is through but our journey's just beginning

Nothing but love can last forever
Nothing but love will start
To mend the place inside your heart that needed healing
Nothing but love can live forever
Nothing but love will start
To make your head spin round & round
You know you're feeling love
Nothing but love, Nothing but love

Can't read you mind, Lord knows I've tried
But in your eyes, I see everything I need to know
Nothing to do, but follow through
My aim is true, I could never ask for any more
And if you walk away
You know that I will follow
To steal back your broken heart
At least until tomorrow
Because forever comes in days
One by one I'll stay beside you
I can't hide that you're the one

Nothing but love can last forever
Nothing but love will start
To mend the place inside your heart that needed healing
Nothing but love can live forever
Nothing but love will start
To make your head spin round & round
You know you're feeling

Nothing but love can hold your world together
Nothing but love can start
To let us hear the sounds above
That have been screaming love
Nothing but love, Nothing but love
Love, Nothing but love, Nothing but love

Talking about great romantic songs (and lyrics), 80's was the best time for it. Hard rock bands sang ballad songs, hard music, but the words are so soft and romantic.

One of them is Bad English. The name doesn't show the quality of the songs from this band at all. Too bad the band broke, but their vocalist, John Waite is still active in music.
One of their songs that I love is Time alone with you. This is not the only song that I like from this band, but to start the later lyrics that will come, I will start with this song.

The Time Alone With You
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When everything is cloudy
And the sun won't shine for me
And it seems
like nothing's goin' right
There's a place I want to be
Just laying there beside you
In the shelter of your room
I leave the world
outside your door
Lose myself in you
When you're in my arms
I find all that I need
I could never live without
The heaven that you showed me

I've been waiting all my life
Just to look into your eyes
I live for the time alone with you
And when I climb
the stairs to find you
And we reach for the light
I thank God I've got
this time alone with you

Your kiss can captivate me
And your touch can set me free
I count the hours baby
Till you are next to me
And it's taken such a long time
To find someone that understands
When I reach out for love now
I reach out for your hand
When I feel your heart beat
It makes me come alive
I don't wanna live without
Something that is so right

I've been waiting all my life
Just to look into your eyes
I live for the time alone with you
Cause everytime I see your face
All my troubles fade away
I live for the time alone with you
And when I climb the stairs to find you
And we reach for the light
I thank God I've got this time alone with you

Yesterday I and my husband went to a cd shop in Arnhem which also sells second hand cds. Unexpectedly I found the second hand cd of Tonic: Sugar. Since it was not expensive at all, I had no hesitate to buy it.

Here is a lyric from the album which is also in the soundtrack of American Pie.

You wanted more
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Love Is Tragic
Love Is Bold
You Will ALways
Do What You Are Told

Love Is Hard
Love Is Strong
You Will Never Say That You Were Wrong
I Don't Know When I Got Bitter
But Love Is Surely Better When It's Gone

'Cause You Wanted More
More Than I could Give
More than I could handle
In a life that I can't live
You wanted more
More than I could bear
More than I could offer
For a love that isn't there

Love is color
Love is loud
Love is never saying you're too proud
Love is trusting
Love is honest
Love is not a hand to hold you down
I don't know when I got bitter
But love is surely better when it's gone

( ( CHORUS ) )

I got to pick me up when I am down
I got to get my feet back on the ground
I got to pick me up when I am down

Yesterday after what happened in Indonesia, my country, I was reminded of the song that used to be in an alternative collection that I had. I couldn't remember the name of the band, but I still know that they're from Australia. Not so long browsing (thanks to Google), I could find the band and the song.
The name of the band is Frente and the song is Cuscutlan.
I found it in Launch from Yahoo and I could listen to their songs and bands that related with their music. Been listening to it now, including Weezer, Coldplay, etc. I just got to remember that this band has a nice song, probably their most famous one : Bizarre Love Triangle.

Anyway, Cuscutlan really expresses my feeling about my country. Here it is.

Cuscutlan (Frente)
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I love my country
But it wears a uniform
It speaks with foreign guns
In the background you can almost hear
The sound of intervention
And I don't know when
Liberty fell
But we rang every mission bell
We rang them loud and clearly
For a world that wouldn't listen

I don' t want to die
I'm as innocent as anybody
I don' t even know how to spell revolutionary
Jesus in the sky
The bullets in the guns
You don't even know
What we mean by repression
Blood is the color of the sunset
You walked into the darkness
I did not hear your last breath

There will not be an inquest
This is not human interest
We danced the dirt with surrender
For our drumbeat
Danced for the balance sheet
Died for the kind of lasting peace
That pleases the world's police man
And Fatherland raped Motherhood
And told her it was for the global good
And now we ring the mission bell
To warn their children

I don' t want to die
I'm as innocent as anybody
I don' t even know how to spell revolutionary
Jesus in the sky
The bullets in the guns
You don't even know
What we mean by repression

Blood is the color of the sunset
You walked into the darkness
I did not hear your last breath
There will not be an inquest
This is not human interest

This is the first lyric that I put here.
I find this groups amazing, especially the bassist and the vocalist: Mark King.
This is one of their songs that keeps on going on my head.

Something About You (Level 42)
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now
how can it be
that a love
carved out of caring
fashioned by fate
could suffer so hard
from the games
played once too often
but making mistakes
is a part
of life's imperfections
born of the years
is it so wrong
to be human after all

drawn into the stream
of undefined illusion
those diamond dreams
they can't disguise the truth
that there is something about you
baby so right
I wouldn't be without you
baby tonight

if ever our love
was concealed
no one can say that
we didn't feel
a million things
and a perfect dream of life
gone
fragile but free
we remain
tender together
if not so in love
and it's not so wrong
we're only human after all

these changing years
they add to your confusion
oh and you need to hear
the time that told the truth

you know there's something about you
baby so right
I wouldn't be without you
baby tonight
because there's something about you
baby so right
I couldn't live without you
baby tonight

After sometimes not buying any cd, last week I decided to order one from my wish list, the latest album of Tonic :Head on straight.
And today the cd arrived.

Whenever I listen to Tonic, I'm always reminded about how I got to loving them. It was around 1997, I was in the third year of my college time. I have a classmate who I always call my 'twin brother' since we were born exactly on the same date and year. His name is Dicky. We both love rock and alternative. We often exchanged our cassettes (yeah, cassettes) to each other. One time there was a conflict between our faculty and other faculty and he was part of it. He was beaten up but thank God he survived. Unfortunately someone took his bag along with my cassette. I don't even remember which one was that. He said sorry and changed that missing cassette with Tonic that he lent me. It was Tonic's first album : Lemon Parade.
I fell in love with their music. It's hard but soft in the same time.
Since then I always follow their music.

Thanks for introducing me to Tonic, Dicky. They're awesome as you are.

I create this weblog to unburden my passion for music, especially rock and alternative. I love nice and touching lyrics, so I will put a lot of lyrics here.

There will also be news or information of my favorite bands: Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Tonic, Goo Goo Dolls, etc.

Since I live in Holland, I have so much difficulties to find radio or programme that can fulfill my taste. When I studied in Brussels, there is a huge music library, which could still relieve me from my thirst of rock music. But since I live in Holland, there is only pop garbage music and bands that you can forget in one week. Luckily there is Radio Veronica which plays mostly '80-'90s hits, and I can still at least listening to Pearl Jam, Nirvana, Soul Asylum, Toto and other nice music from old times.

If I have ever been to America, my wish is only to visit the concerts of my favorite rock bands.